You Told Me That People Are Holding Hands
And You Wished That You Can Do That Too
Showed Me A Msg U Had Typed

'I Wan To Hold Your Hands..
But I Am Afraid You Would Let Go.. Can I???'

That Was The First Time We held Our Hands

And You Promised That You Would Never Let Go..

ZY & LZ


7TH NOV 1987 & 27TH AUG 1988

SP & NYP

HOUGANG & BUKIT PANJANG

HE: chinese food, soccer, anything that ah pei likes.. =P

SHE: chocolate, flowers, sweet talks, money, shopping, family, friends, him..

HE: weird looking vege.. =X

SHE: SMOKERS, MASCOT, JELLY, MED...

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i dunno when would u chance upon this blog again.. perhaps 2am on some random day.. hmmx.. realised that everytime when we are unhappy about each other.. its always that few topics?? right.. i know that i keep harping on it.. but the thing is i cant get over it.. and we always leave problems unsolved.. so i was thinking after reading this entry, u may wan to e mail me, sms me or tag at the blog to tell me wat u are feeling.. pls dun use call.. cos i may not know wat to say then.. alright.. lets start.. it maybe hard for u.. but i wan it to be settled..

*studies*
i wan u to get good grades.. is not only because of me.. is for your future.. i know u will say u are not cut out to study.. i mean who likes studying?? i dun!! but i still must study.. no one is born with intelligence.. but is for the future.. compare a PSLE grad and a POLY grad.. which one would u hire.. or should i say which one would the society hire.. living a life is not only about yourself.. yes.. u live your own life.. but when it comes to this.. dun forget.. you will be competing with several thousands of applicants.. i hope u are trying hard enuff.. but also.. how can u excel without attending classes and doing your tutorial.. there is a difference.. dun deny.. how much u sow is how much u reap.. you have the potential.. i know it.. think about it..

*money*
i realised that you are often financially low.. and i know you are working for daily expense.. but i dun wan u to tired yourself out with the expense of your studies.. and also.. not having enough savings.. wat are u going to do when it comes to rainning days?? keep a portion of your money every month.. slowing u would see money growing.. dun keep telling yourself u get $300 per mth.. tell yourself u only have $250 per month.. and no! i dun look down on u.. i jeer at u is wanting you to get the motivation to start saving.. there will bound to be times when u would need money.. its jus the matter of time.. and i know u wouldnt wan others to know that your gf has more savings than you do rite???

*smoking*
you told me that you were scared that you will not be able to quit by that time.. which will be 31 dec.. for me i thot i had already gave you enough time which is a solid 5 mths for u to quit.. i dun really demand a total no cig.. but maybe like 1-2 a day at least.. then again.. you may say i dun understand because i dont smoke. and wats more u had smoke for so many years.. loving someone means accepting everything about that person.. this sentence i dont agree with it.. for me.. loving someone means to see him giving all his potential to attain the best in life.. i would continue to try until when if someday i gave up on asking you to smoke.. meaning i had gave up on u.. i don wish to see my love ones doing harm to themselves.. if they wan to.. they shall leave my circle of vision.. understand?? i really wish one day we can have our meal and continue shopping.. and not hearing 'i need a break'.. i am not concern about the appearance of a smoker.. i slimply dun care.. but i care about things that would be a lot term thing.. and that is health.. also.. smoking less would mean u save up more??? put aside the money u intend to buy cig and see how much it can accumulate to.. not willing to be so unfair.. i shall propose a question to you.. is giving both of us a chance.. i am allowing u to amend your deadline for once and for the final time.. when would the day be?? you can tell me your own time, you can chose to remain the date as 31 dec, or u can choose not to quit(u know wat would happen)... is your own freedom.. i wun force you.. u can take your pick.. dun wish to quarrel with u.. but if u chose the date and still continue to smoke upon deadline.. DUN lie to me.. i hate to be cheated.. alright.. u decide..

*sex*
i understand that you said you cannot get me the report because of serveral reasons.. but then with that.. do u expect me to live in self denial for the rest of the days i would be with u??? sorry.. but i cant.. aids takes around 8-10yrs to show the signs.. how can u be sure that you are free from it??? *touch wood* but wat if.. after we are together for like 4 yrs.. and i see signs of it on u.. what do u expect me to do?? i would hate guys for the rest of my life.. and can u imagine.. i would feel soo... dirty.. and you requested on your 21 bdy.. sorry.. but i think i am still not ready at that age.. firstly.. what if a life is created.. are we fiancially stable to take care of it?? secondly.. i really want to know that you are clean before anything happens.. if you are infected.. wat do u expect me to do?? do u know that when i learnt about it.. i really felt dirty.. its like.. i shared the same man that some chick had owned before.. can you understand how i was feeling?? i know its something that had happened long ago.. but sometimes you have to face the consquence of wat you did.. i dunno.. i still feel very uncomfortable about this thing.. give me your thots..

alrights.. thats is about all regarding the issues we or i has been pondering about.. send me a e mail if you want to.. i dont wanna settle this face to face neither thru phone.. thanks..

*zhen*